I feel like ‘bittersweet’, is one of the those terms that is carelessly thrown around when you don’t know what to say. When you are unsure on how to accurately describe the confusion in how you are feeling. Well, I have made it back to sweet home Chicago!!! And for lack of a better term, this sure is bittersweet!
Don’t get me wrong, it is amazing and surreal and dreamlike and exciting to be back in my home. Back in My Chicago.
But it is confusing. And I don’t truly know how to feel.
When is my next flight? Do I need to book a hostel? What is the exchange rate? Have I figured out how to get to the airport?
Though I haven’t truly mastered transitions in my months of travel, I did get used to working on a timeline and knowing where I was going. Well, it looks as if I have reached the end of that timeline, and I am not sure where I am heading next.
And that is ok. Because I have 10 months of story, adventure, relationships, experiences, that I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world. Ten months of growing, of learning the real lessons of life.
This is a picture I snapped as I sat in the LAX airport waiting for my flight from Los Angeles to Auckland on October 7th, 2014. This is where it all started. I had just gotten off the phone with my mom, fighting back tears as this was the last time I would be in America for at least 6 months. The realization of what I was about to do had just set in strong. I was scared. I was overwhelmed. This was real. This was happening.
This is me on July 14th, 2015, on my last flight of my 48 hour journey back home. A mere 20 minutes from seeing my dad! The realization of what I had just accomplished had been whirling around in my mind the entire flight. I was sad to be leaving. I was excited to be getting back home. This was real! It happened!
And thus life continues on. The ending to this chapter has been written. The last post of this blog has been published (for now). And I don’t know what is to come?
What I do know though, is that I am happy to be home. And I am enjoying these lazy days of Chicago summer for the time being. And what will be, will be!
So, does anyone want to hire me?!